God gave me A Future with Hope – Pastor Jim’s Story
I have read – “We can live for 40 days without food, 8 days without water, 4-6 minutes without air, but ONLY SECONDS without HOPE”.
Hope was drained from my life when I was just 12 years of age. My wonderful father suddenly died in Hospital and my whole world fell apart, he was not just my father, he was my mentor, my best friend and great to be with, he always had time for me and always wanted me to be a part of whatever he was doing in or around our small farm. We always sat together every Sunday in seat number 52 in the Presbyterian Church in Ballygawley, Co Tyrone, Northern Ireland.
Added to this awful grief, was the extra great sense of loss I experienced when our small farm was sold, and I had to say goodbye to my childhood friends a donkey called Jackie and a dog called Spot. Five years later, at the age of 17, I was still grieving over the death of my father and was so unhappy at home with my Mother by adoption, that I ran away to England, not only to try and escape all the things that made me so very unhappy but also to try and build a new life.
My whole world fell apart again, as our engagement was broken off. I was heartbroken and completely devastated with the pain of rejection and the loss of a young lady that I loved so very much. This further loss of someone I loved, stirred up all the previous grief that I had struggled with in the past following the death of my father. I was so devastated by what had happened, and it hurt so much to be rejected and left alone in the world. I knew nobody that I could turn to for help. The pain of rejection and loneliness became totally unbearable.
Although I knew about God from Sunday School and Church, the reality was, I did not know Him, I had a bit of religion, but I did not have a relationship with God, so I never thought of crying out to Him for help. Instead, I attempted to end my life by swallowing a handful of tablets with the help of alcohol.
I was introduced to hope on Friday 10th April 1959. by John, who was a member of the Parachute Regiment, he approached me as I stood at a Bar of the NAAFI Club in Aldershot, just a few days after my suicide attempt. As I stood at the bar, I was planning to finish my beer and go back to my Army Barracks and use my Army Rifle to end my life, but before I could leave the bar, John approached me and having persevered, he managed to get me to share with him what was going on in my life.
He listened very carefully, then he introduced me to a living God that loved me, a God that could give me HOPE and a NEW LIFE, a God that would never leave me nor forsake me and a God that could heal my broken heart and wipe my tears away. After a brief discussion, John and I left the Naafi Club and walked for about ten minutes, to Holy Trinity Church in Victoria Road in Aldershot in Hampshire. There we knelt and prayed together, and this was my prayer. “Oh God if You can heal my broken heart, dry my tears and give me hope, I’ll go to the Nations of the world and tell them about the hope that You gave me”.
Suddenly, it felt as if someone came and hugged me, and the hug felt so good. As I relaxed in the unseen arms, with my tear-filled eyes tightly closed, I felt all the pain and grief, also all the hopelessness and blackness drain from my life and in its place, there began flowing within me a stream of life, joy, and peace and hope.
I felt so free and so very happy, and I began smiling broadly, something I had not done for a long time. I got up from my knees that night, a transformed man, as I began my personal relationship with Jesus, I had been born again by the Spirit of God and from that moment on, I would have the life of Christ inside of me. I had been taken out of the kingdom of darkness and was now a citizen in the kingdom of God’s dear Son. I would never again walk in darkness because I would always have Jesus, the Light of the World with me.
It’s now over 65 years since I began my hope-filled journey, a journey that has not always been easy, simply because I came to faith in Jesus, but I can honestly say that The Lord has helped me to keep going when things became rough. I have proved many times, that God’s GRACE is sufficient. God’s Grace was sufficient in the time of sorrow, when Christine, to whom I had been married for 23 years, lost her battle with cancer, and passed away. She was just 45 at the time and our daughter Marella was only 14.
Then on 27th January 2023, I again entered the valley of tears, when my darling wife Ruth died in hospital, as a result of kidney failure, Sepsis and Colitis. We had been married for over 35 years.
God’s Grace has also been sufficient to get me through a heart attack in 1984 and two more heart attacks in 1994, also a few other health-related issues, through the years.
As I look back to the night of Friday 10th of April 1959 and as I remember the awful condition that I was in before I was introduced to the HOPE, that is in Jesus, I think about the words of a lovely song. “Something beautiful, something good – All my confusion, He understood – All I had to offer Him was brokenness and strife – But He made something beautiful of my life”.
My journey of faith has taken me into Pastoral Ministry from 1963 – 2018, with the Elim Pentecostal Church and also the Assemblies of God.
From 1990 – 1996, my wife Ruth and I were Missionaries in Uganda, East Africa. I became the Founder and Director of Uganda Mission of Hope.
I also served as the Founder and Principal of SOMAT (School Of Ministry And Theology) a Training Centre for Pastors.
From 1972 to present, I have been involved in Broadcasting, first on Hospital Radio, then local Radio, including LBC in London – BBC Radio Medway (Now Radio Kent) also Radio Star Country, located in Southern Ireland.
From 2011 to 2013, I was a presenter with Revelation TV (Sky 581) Among the programmes that I presented were “R” Mornings, “Church without Walls” and “Classic Praise.”
In 2014, the Lord enabled me to Launch Wellspring TV at the Church I Pastored in Welling, Kent.
In March 2018, the Lord further enabled me to launch Real Hope TV, as an International Internet Ministry. The website URL is www.realhopetv.com
Every Friday at 8:00pm – I present a live broadcast of Gospel Songs on Video.
The broadcast is available on Facebook and on this website & also Roku
Facebook – https://www.facebook.com/groups/realhopetv/
ROKU – The Channel is – Real Hope TV
SPECIAL UPDATE
I had to resign from the Pastorate in Welling in September 2018, because
the travelling home on a Sunday afternoon became so very tiring for both
Ruth and I, as due to long queues of traffic, a journey that should have
taken 45 minutes by car, was taking up to two hours.
It was very tough on Ruth, when her health began to deteriorate, due to the
onset of kidney failure. This meant that we could not consider moving to
live in Welling because the work involved, and the upheaval would have
been too much for her.
Sadly, Ruth’s kidneys failed completely, and she passed away on 27th
January 2023 in the North Middlesex Hospital in London.
We had been married for over 35 years – She was just 75 years of age.
Two things helped me to cope with the immense grief that I experienced,
one was the fact that I knew Ruth had gone home to be with Jesus and the
second was, the fact that I knew she was not suffering any more, because
during the final weeks of her life, she suffered so much intense pain.
In October 2023, I moved from Enfield in Middlesex where Ruth and I had lived for 22 years to a flat in Aldershot in Hampshire. I have lived in Aldershot area twice before, and my daughter Marella and her family live nearby. I also have other family members living in or very near the area
Looking back to 2001, the Lord gave me the opportunity to professionally record, the first of five CDs of Gospel Songs. I have travelled widely as a Gospel Singer and also had the opportunity to sing 4 Gospel Songs on Revelation TV.
I still enjoy visiting various places to sing and share my Testimony. I give God all the Glory for everything He has done for me, in me and through me thus far.
Thank you sincerely for reading some highlights from my story.
Jesus said that He came to give us life in all its fullness. and I can honestly say that Jesus completely transformed my life for good and forever. Now because of my faith in Him, I no longer have a past, I only have a future, a future filled with hope because as the Bible says Christ in you – is The HOPE of GLORY (Col 1:27)
God loves you and He offers you a Future with HOPE. He is willing to forgive you for every sin you have ever committed, and every mistake that you have ever made. He offers you the opportunity to begin a new life, regardless of what you have done and regardless of your age, your gender or your nationality.
God bless you and please feel free to send me an email or connect with me on Facebook.
My Email address is – live@realhopetv.com